Do you feel the same?

Have you ever thought of where life is taking you? What is happening? Why am I growing up so soon? I don’t want to grow up, I don’t want these, bigass responsibilities and complications. See, the thing is that we are living in a crazy world where anything can motivate you, but at the same time anything and everything can make you cry and make you feel worthless. Are all these disadvantages of growing up? When I was in school, I used to be fascinated by the world, the elder people, growing up and being an adult is the only dream of every small kid, including me and you too. For those who watched “FRIENDS” remember how Joey and Rachel cry on their 30th birthdays, “Why god? Why?”, that is so true trust me, I am 19 and still, all I feel is why can’t I go back to school? I guess we all go through this or the pandemic is hitting us (or me) so hard. Ever since the pandemic started, we have all the free time in the world to scroll down our Instagram feed, lie in our beds, watch Netflix, and to chill. And just when everything is going okay, your inner guilt starts rising, your heart and brain start torturing you with all the weird, depressing thoughts. What can you about it? Cry on your misery. I feel like when my brain is my enemy, what should I expect from others? I noticed when I was in school, as a kid, my life and thoughts were more sorted than they are now, at least I was clear about my wants and likes. But, it’s okay. Then comes the motivation, I can do everything. Of course, I can, but I don’t feel like doing anything so, I won’t. No problem, we will do everything from tomorrow, till then should I sleep or watch something? If anything like this ever happens to you, don’t worry, you are not the only one, even I am going through the same.